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Documenting not dying since October 2013.

The 1st & 2nd; Graham died in the night.

The 1st & 2nd; Graham died in the night.

ย The 1st of April.

I would say that I am getting back to normal. I'm still coughing more than I would like, and I won't be squidging any babies just yet, but I don't feel like shit all the time anymore, so it think that's a plus.

My eyes have been very annoying today, which has been a bother. Just the film between me and the world. I'm so glad I'm going to see Mr. Kolli on Wednesday. Obviously the problem won't be fixed then, but at least we'll come up with a plan.

This morning, I wrote up a blog post, then painted my nails and helped Mommy choose a dress for Jamie and Natalya's wedding. We have it narrowed down to two.

I spent the afternoon finishing the back of my jumper, and I watched the first episode of The Case Against Adnan Syed. It might be named after him, but it was very focused on Hae Min Lee. She comes across as so young. Much younger than eighteen. And honestly I don't know if we'll ever know what really happened to her.

The 2nd of April.

Well, today sucks. It's the last episodes of Bake Off and Sewing Bee, and to top it off, Graham died in the night.

Graham was my hamster. I didn't really talk about him because there wasn't much to say! He was a very quiet hamster - we tried to get him out in the past to run around in the ball like Hamilton used to, but he had zero interest in that. He just liked to live in his tank, eat his food, sleep. We have had him nearly three years now, so he's had a very good innings. But this morning we put his food in and he didn't move, and by half past eleven he still hadn't, so we disturbed the sawdust around him and found him to be cold. He seemed quite peaceful, like he went in his sleep. I hope so.

I started knitting the front of my jumper, so I've been doing that pretty much all day. This afternoon, I watched the first part of Leaving Neverland. It is so disturbing. I was aware there were graphic descriptions of abuse, but it still shocked me. I don't particularly want to watch the next part, but I think it's important. It really does show what a dreadful predator he was. And the people around him enabling the abuse. Arghhh.

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The 3rd & 4th; I barely coughed at all.

The 3rd & 4th; I barely coughed at all.

The 30th & 31st; Probably getting better.

The 30th & 31st; Probably getting better.