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Documenting not dying since October 2013.

Q&A; Humans do not give ourselves enough credit sometimes.

When were you happiest? When Death Cab for Cutie played Photobooth especially for me.

What is your greatest fear?

Running out of time.

What is your earliest memory?

Sitting on my kitchen floor in front of a cupboard, playing with a little grey bear and being upset that I couldn't play with the brown one because he belonged to my sister.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?

My impatience and short temper.

What is the trait you most deplore in others?

Incompetence.

What is your most treasured possession?

Nothing material that I own seems important anymore.

What would your super power be?

The ability to heal.

What makes you unhappy?

Thinking about the things I will miss, and the fact I will not be able to comfort those I love when I am gone.

What do you most dislike about your appearance?

My toes.

What is your most unappealing habit?

Cracking my knuckles.

What is the worst thing anyone's said to you?

"There's nothing we can do."

To whom would you most like to say sorry and why?

My family, because I never truly appreciated them until it was too late.

What does love feel like?

Safety.

What was the best kiss of your life?

The first.

Have you ever said 'I love you' and not meant it?

No.

Who would you invite to your dream dinner party?

I would enjoy the forced conversation between Stephen Fry and Joey Essex.

Is it better to give or to receive?

Always to give. I am forever buying presents for people.

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?

"Today has been [insert adjective here]." I also miaow quite a lot.

What has been your biggest disappointment?

That the party will be over too soon.

If you could edit your past, what would you change?

I wouldn't be the two-faced cow I was as a teen.

What do you consider your greatest achievement?

Making people sign the organ and bone marrow donor registers.

What keeps you awake at night?

All the things I have left to do.

What song would you like played at your funeral?

This question is a little too pertinent right now.

How would you like to be remembered?

As someone who cared, and who made a difference. With happiness; I will not have tears.

What is the most important lesson life has taught you?

Humans do not give ourselves enough credit sometimes. We fear so much, yet when thrust into unfamiliar and frightening territory, we are able to turn powerful distress into strength, and we metamorphose into versions of ourselves we didn't know existed. How we respond to difficulty is what forms the basis of our character, and defines the quality of our future. One can choose to be frozen by the infinite misery that cancer brings, or select the other option: to feel the misery, even bathe in it for a little while. Then get yourself out, and carry on living anyway.

Dispelling the misconceptions of bone marrow transplantation.

From the sublime to the ridiculous.