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The 17th & 18th; This must be how actual writers feel.

The 17th of July. I do love summer, but it's too hot in the sun. I enjoy being able to wear my dresses though. There are not many days a year that I can, so the next few might require outfit changes so things get worn. 

Got up earlier then usual for a Sunday because Victoria and Isobel were coming to look at kittens at half ten. They were very prompt and I ushered them in, so the kittens legged it to the other end of the room. We stayed where we were, and slowly Nova, Nettie and Noelle all came to say hello. Isobel was very indecisive (as 3 year olds are), stuck between Nettie and Noelle. I think the decision was made for her when Noelle really took to them both, having a great time playing with their fingers. 

They left after about an hour, and they'll come back to take her home when they are back from holiday in a couple of weeks. Her name will be changed to Sophie so we'll have to start calling her that. 

After Grandma had been taken home from church and we'd had lunch, Mommy and I went to the Cats Protection Garden Party and took some cakes for them to sell. We saw Jen and Lee, bought some cake, jam and raffle tickets, but couldn't stay long because it was roasting and I needed to get back to feed the kittens. 

For the rest of the afternoon, I've been photographing the kittens for the website, filling in my Anthony Nolan expenses forms and composing an email to Mark Tami about mental health post-transplant. I will update my blog, I swear. 

The 18th of July.

More writing. I think this must be how actual writers feel, doing essentially nothing but. I didn't get any done this morning because there wasn't really time before I had to go out. I had my breakfast and coffee, fed the kittens (who are much friendlier now we've taken the cage down), then it was time to go to the gym. 

I was meeting with Vlad because now I've had this news about my spine, I don't think it is wise for me to be putting any extra strain on it until I have seen the surgeon, know what's going on and what we're going to do about it. Mr. Harland might say it's fine to exercise, or tell me what I can and cannot do, which would be great and I'd go back immediately, but it hurt every time I worked out and so for now, I will not be gymming. He asked how my diet had been, which I think is funny because I will not be changing that for anyone. It's taken my entire life for me to cultivate a relatively normal relationship with food, and any obsessive monitoring of what or how much I eat will only end badly. Sorry but not sorry. 

After lunch: writing/blogging. I've written up two out of three, with the second one scheduled to be published tomorrow morning, and I'm going to try to do the third one this evening, because tomorrow I'll have another one to do!

The weather is too warm. I cannot go outside because it just feels too close. The air feels heavy. Sleeping tonight will be a challenge. Daddy's just got in from work and I remember just how gross the train home can be in this kind of heat so I do not envy him at all.